Simon P. Clark, author of EREN and regular W&A blogger, on why it's so important not to give up on your dream.
So, here we are. My book's being published this week and I finally get to irritate people by starting conversations with 'Well, as a published author...'
It's easy to forget everything it took to get here. The late nights, typing away and getting frustrated at just how bad my story was, are easy to justify now I get to hold the book. Staying home while friends went out seems like an easy choice now I know it all worked out. At the time, though, they were immensely difficult decisions. I had low moments when I wanted to throw my laptop across the room and long periods when I didn't write a word because of course it was pointless, and of course I was rubbish, and obviously this stupid dream had to come to an end.
Those moments – ones that I know other writers are going through right now - are exactly why I wanted to write this post. I know what I needed to be told back then, and I know what I want to tell others right now: Don't give up, because it will be worth it.
Writing means loneliness a lot of the time. It does mean sitting by yourself late at night, feeling like you're kidding yourself and the world is laughing. Sometimes it means tension with friends and family who don't understand that you can't come to the pub. Writing's not a good excuse in their eyes - why can't you just be cool?
Don't stop. Write. It will be worth it.
Success isn't something you can measure on a scale. For some, finishing the book will be success. Others will self-publish, and that will be success. Others will go the traditional method. Some will make money, and others don't need to. Those things aren't as important as making sure you do the writing, do the work, and get to a place where you can look back, smile, and know you did well.
It will be worth it.
Edgar Albert Guest, an American poet, put it better than I can in his poem It Couldn't Be Done. The last stanza goes like this:
There are thousands to tell you it cannot be done,
There are thousands to prophesy failure,
There are thousands to point out to you one by one,
The dangers that wait to assail you.
But just buckle in with a bit of a grin,
Just take off your coat and go to it;
Just start in to sing as you tackle the thing
That “cannot be done,” and you’ll do it.
That might seem cliché, but sometimes it's important to hear that you shouldn't give up. Writing a book is a big thing, and in the ocean of words that makes up modern life, it's tempting to feel insignificant and small and easily swallowed. To that, I say this: Keep going, word by word, line by line, and ignore the world when you need to.
Books aren't written in a day, and if - when - you get to where you need to be, you can look back and count the bad days and the good days together, knowing you powered through, fought the good fight, and kept going.
And it will be worth it.
Simon's debut children's novel, Eren, will be published September 2014 by Constable & Robinson, an imprint of Little, Brown. In the run up to publication, Simon has launched Eren Tales, a year-long collaborative project with photographer Brandon Rechten. Learn more at www.erentales.com, or visit Simon's website.
A very inspiring post, Simon, thank you! I've been working on my MS since the end of 2011 - I do have faith in it (though that wasn't always the case), and I know/hope it is a good story that people will enjoy... it has evolved a long way from the first draft and I have now set myself a deadline which seems to be doing the trick in keeping me motivated! My problem has been that with each new development, the story becomes more complicated, and necessitates some re-writing. Since I also have a 'day job' it is slow going. I took some time out mid-summer to complete and self-publish a short story collection, which has gained some nice reviews and comments which all helps to boost confidence.
Jonathan - I think we do it because we can't imagine NOT doing it! At the end of the day, for me, the ability to craft stories that entertain, knowing that people have been drawn into a world of my creation, is it's own reward. I've been an avid reader since I could (earliest memories are of 'The Faraway Tree' which pretty much describes every book I've ever enjoyed - to be able to give people an 'escape' is a wonderful feeling.
S.A. - I put the laptop away and do something else, or talk about the story I'm writing with a trusted friend - our 'what if?' conversations inevitably fire me up again! I believe everyone needs a 'writing buddy' at some point, preferably one who is on your wavelength and whom you can trust not to run off with your idea and write their own version! Sometimes I blog, or write a short story (perhaps one based on one of the characters in my main novel) and the process of writing something else, something different, seems to get me going again.
I may just print out and pin up the Sophocles quote - and also the 'Couldn't Be Done' extract...
Best to you all. x
Thank you for all these replies, all these stories, guys. Writers in community is an inspiring thing to see
Thank you for this inspiring post, Simon. I have been on the verge of giving up for the past year or so, having been writing for some 10 years now. I tend to see others around me making progress, getting an agent, getting published and doubts about my own writing quickly creep in. I have self-published, but It's just not providing the satisfaction I want. I'm about 45,000 words into my latest YA book and once finished I will tread the agent/publisher road again. You are right, though. To keep going is the key and something I must keep repeating to myself.
Good luck in all you do and thank you for the post.