conversations.

by zainab zee777
1st August 2017

“WEEP!, you pointless baby ..” said the unknown voice

It was so sharp and steady, it almost sounded like a real person

“ do you know anything about reality?” said another

It made the sane question.

It made mother cry

It made me stare down walls with an empty mind

“is going back in time really going to change you !?” continued the voice

The tone in my head changed, but not my body

“you try to be someone else, you try to be quiet..”  the voice kept stating

I smiled in disbelief

“the sad truth is that you’ll never reach to the non existence.”

I chuckled whilst fighthting back those demolishing tears

“and you’ll never going to be clean..” finished the voice

I thought, maybe if I had a shield, I wouldn’t feel the rain

Maybe, I wouldn’t be as stained

Maybe I’d create the beauty I lack

And my father ,

Silent and loud

“quit it, you cannot be nor become” exclaimed the voice

"I maybe be you culprit" I agreed

“wicked!, I couldn’t agree more you whiffle-whaffle” started again the voice

I’m going to fall asleep

“‘cause I will not be left alone with you” I ended

 

 

I woke up to the person I was, perhaps yesterday was today , or all the way around

My eyes searching for the daylight,

It’s 2:00 am

Again, I’ve been awakened to darkness

“you know, we could be friends” started off with a soft hiss

Too dull to import the acknowledgement

“it’s far more easier for me if you’d cooperate “ said the voice with a sigh

 And my mother tracing my face features,

Slowly, softly working her way up to my head 

“weak… she can’t possibly be here always for you to escape” says the voice with alert

I beg my tears to retreat and surrender

Her soft hands causing the chills that I crave.

 

 

I must be going mad,

I see solutions hanging up in the air

the cieling carving out letters of harm,

to you, to loved ones and I

"it'd feel so much better if you'd imagine the details" said the voice with encouragement 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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