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PROLOGUE

Neither did i wanted nor did she wanted but it was that which happened made us drift apart, life seemed pretty cruel to me as i lie there helpless seeing her god knows what the hell of pain she was suffering. I wasn’t sure that i could make it and i readily die out of nothing. Years of pain, agony, frustrations ,accusations, came altogether like a fusion and mixed to the already toxic clouds around me. Everything went from crystal clear to blurry and foggy just in a matter of few seconds or even in fractions of seconds, all i knew that as soon as she left my hand and went towards him ,leaving me, leaving behind any arcane ray of hope ,harmony, any more open moments with me to him, whom she said she loved, whom i knew she loved and he who loved her the most and maybe even more than me.

And that was the moment i let go her because i knew there was someone to never let go of her, will always be there to hold her ,weave his finger in hers every time she needed.

Life is never what you expect and there is only one thing predictable about life just one thing that it will always be unpredictable and can change you forever and ever.

The fire was already on me, the inferno trying to ingulf me but the it wasn’t larger than the internal inferno ,the flames of jealousy and had already promised me that i will be charred alived by it. And i was amazingly glad that i didn’t had to live it because the external fire was ebbing me away, my life away.though there were many more like me caught in this deadliest of holocaust but their pain didn’t caught my eye , it was her ache that tore me away,there was no comparison to the extent of helplessness and depravedness i felt.

Lying there she was, wet and fresh tears making their way to her soft cheeks. Wounds and blood stretching and invading all her body, the once plum dress she wore today in which she was jaw dropping sight was now crimson covered with the red paint her body had thrower.

In spite of the deadliest scene around me, dead bodies, screams, screeches, of people, their blood, their sadness, frightens, and the destroyed university by now, supporting nothing also being a victim of this blast just like other people I recalled every precious memory and started my last 12 breathes before i died ,before i closed my eyes........my dad and my mom , dad having his hand around her waist smiling in perfection their faces pushing a smile on mine , the day i won my first prize for the race,first day of high school,my every first ,the day i started to play basketball,met my friends,every single day i longed for a sibling,Jacob,my first ever cousin brother,my family,my friends ,my best friend and also a so called brother ERIC ,the fun ,the first time i saw her ANNA, her beautiful face those ocean blue eyes,the time we played,the time we enjoyed ,her giggle,the fight,she on the play day, on the restraunt where she turned all pink by my words,the first time she gave me a peck,and today when i danced woth her my last dance,my last dance with the girl i loved ,the girl i watched for years ,never letting her go from my sight , the care ,affection she showed,she telling me i was her best friend, then letting her go for whom she loved ....ERIC,whom she made a choice......everything flashed in my memory one after other constantly ,recalling every thing living 20 years of my life in hardly 20 seconds.....my importance......and then her sapphire eyes met mine, there was a reflection of pain, of the destruction she just seen, her sense of loosing everyone,and then i heard her through dim ears my name “JACK...jack..ja..jack”and then for the last time i smiled even though the pain was such that anyone would scream to death but still i did it for her,so that the last memory of me she carried of me was of a happy man telling her she was best thing that happened to me,

I am sorry Anni to let you go...i spoke to my already non supporting body who couldn’t move an inch ....and then i knew that my last granted 12 breathes were ending ...and my last breath i lived for her....she still was screaming my name..and then she was approaching to me but all new like she just now arrived to the prom,the dress was again bright plum not even a stain on it ,her beautiful face whispered to me “jack...”it was like jingling bells,was it real or a hallucination?but till then i breathed my last breath and closed my eyes forever.....

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